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It's Getting Better All The Time... [Jan. 21st, 2005|02:25 pm]
[mood | okay]
[music |Blv. Of Broken Dreams - Green Day]

well.. it's a snow day! YAY!

Everything is good... I'm sad but glad I'm not at school today..
I'm sad cause I can't see my friends, but I'm glad cause I won't have to see him and her...

I feel really stupid for still being in love with him.. but oh well..
he's got her.. I suppose that's all he needs..
As for me, I've excepted the fact that I'm alone, I'm perfectly
fin with it..

I got my friends.. ALL the way! =D
I' really don't care about my happiness anymore cause my friends are
the one's that make me happy cause they are happy, that's all I care
about...

well, that's about it.. I'll write later...

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I don't stop breathing every time the phone rings
My heart don't race when someones at my door
I've almost given up thinkin' your ever gonna call
I don't believe in magic anymore.

I just don't lie awake at night
Asking God would get you off my mind
It's getting better all the time
It's getting better all the time.
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LOVE
Jess`

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All I Did Was Work.... [Jan. 17th, 2005|03:06 pm]
[mood | content]
[music |American Idot - Green Day]

Ok.. well today wasn't that exciting.. all I did was stay home and clean the house.. which I still have alot to do. err..haha.

But, I didn't have to deal with everyone and I'm in a really good mood which is good .. at least I'm not bitin' everyone's head off.. haha.

well, I will see you guys tomarrow.


LOVE

Jess`

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Last Night Was So Much Fun! [Jan. 16th, 2005|04:05 pm]
[mood | relaxed]
[music |Restless _ Allison Krauss & Union Station]

Last night was so fun! haha. Me and the whole family went to a Alison Krauss & Union Station concert in Charleston. haha.

It was funny. Alison Krauss is hilarious and I and I was like .."OMG! She acts just like me and my friends!" ..lmao!

Well, I'll write later today.. this site has been really screwed up all weekend and now it's working so I'm happy..

LOVE
Jess

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I'm Ok.. [Jan. 9th, 2005|03:12 pm]
[mood | okay]
[music |Way Away - Yellowcard]

I'm ok..

Yesterday sucked cause I've a friggin' drama gueen.. haha.. oh well...
that happens.


Just dreading Monday...



LOVE
Jess`*


</3 _______________________________________________________ Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me) Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering) Cutting off my words before I speak (Cutting off my words) This is how it feels to not believe Way away, away from here I'll be Way away, away so you can see How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe) Feels to be alone and not believe anything </3
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Hurt... [Jan. 8th, 2005|07:15 pm]
[mood | crushed]
[music |Monday Morning Church - Alan Jackson]

Today was ok..

I went to the hospital to see my Mawmaw ... I was sick the whole time... ate, felt better, came home and tried to sleep... couldn't so I got on here and talked then I got pissed off because people are mean and one certain person just set me off.

I hate men... I'm giving up on them... they hate me too...

I'm giving up on love... there's no one to love... love hates me...

screw it..


LOVE

Jess`*


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Way Away [Jan. 8th, 2005|10:47 am]
[mood | hungry]
[music |Only One - Yellowcard]

Well.. same old same old... haha.

I just woke up alittle bit ago.. and now I'm just talkin' to people and listenin' to Yellowcard ..haha.

Well, school isn't anything new, I've been really busy all week.. like I haven't been on the computer everyday like I usually do cause of school and trying to keep my grades up... I'm guessin' I'm just gonna be busy every week then..that's just great.. ugh! haha..

Geez.. the weather has sucked really bad... it's always rainy.. grr...
haha

There's really nothing to write about...
...well I'm gonna go do somethin',I'll probably write later today...


LOVE
Jess`*

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Happy New Year! [Jan. 1st, 2005|02:21 pm]
[mood | sleepy]
[music |Gator Bowl!!]

Happy New Year everyone!! =D
I got back from Shasta's like a couple of hours ago. We had an awesome time!I'm really sleepy though because we didn't go to bed until like 3...haha! So, I don't really feel like typing ALL the crazy stuff we did, so if you would like to know.. just ask me on Monday.. haha!

I'm watchin' the Gator Bowl, WVU isn't doing so hot but, hopefully we can get our act together pretty soon.

That's about it... see ya on Monday!

LOVE
Jess`*


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Christmas Vacation... [Dec. 27th, 2004|04:42 pm]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |The Terminal - movie]

Man... I haven't written in along time...haha! .. well all I did today was shop with my sister..

I had a good Christmas.My Christmas Eve was real good cause I spent it with Kels early in the day. and I'm gonna go to Shasta's and party New Years... haha!

this is a really pretty song...

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mmmmm
mmmmmm
So this is love, Mmmmmm
So this is love
So this is what makes life divine
I'm all aglow, Mmmmmm
And now I know
The key to all heaven is mine

My heart has wings, Mmmmmm
And I can fly
I'll touch ev'ry star in the sky
So this is the miracle that I've been dreaming of
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
So this is love ...
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LOVE

Jess`*

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Over At Shasta's... haha... [Dec. 3rd, 2004|11:38 pm]
[mood | giddy]
[music | Viva La Bam.. haha!! =D]

HEY!! I'm over here at Shasta's tlakin' to Michaeal on the phone...haha! =D We are gonna stay on the phone til like 3 in the morning!!

The dance was friggin' awesome!! =D

Well, I'll fill you guys in later on that...hehe!


LOVE

Jess`*

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Work, Work, Work... [Nov. 27th, 2004|05:43 pm]
[mood | tired]
[music | In A Fix - tv show =D]

Yeah...all I really did today was work, work, work. haha. Well, I had to get up at 8 and come downstairs since everyone was goin' to town and they wanted me downstairs so I don't get stolen or somethin' like that...haha. We everyone went to town, my dad had to get his truck worked on and my mom and sister took the dog, Puddles, to the vet cause she had a stroke or somethin' like that. Well, I came downstairs and slept some more until like 9 then went outside to feed the animals then I decided to clean the house. I was makin' myslef some rice when everyone came home, and they didn't bring back Puddles so, that wasn't good. They are keepin' her on a IV thing to bring down swealing in the brain, so she could either get better, stay the same, or die. My sister wasn't very happy. We all sat down and ate left over Thanksgiving dinner for lunch except me, I had Mexican rice...haha. Then, my sister called my Mawmaw to take her shopping down at Charleston, then I had to go write these stupid 4-H articles. Then, went up to my room and sorta cleaned it...haha. I wanted to get on the computer but I couldn't because of mother...err..she was updating stuff. So, I watched football with my dad then he just left because my mother wanted him to do somethin'. Shasta's sister calls me and asks me if I want to go to the movies with Shasta. I doubted my mom would take me down there and I was startin' to get really tired. I took a walk with the dogs, played Scrabble with my mommy and I won!! YAY! Put my dogs in the kennel...and now I'm really worn out..

That's pretty much it.

LOVE

Jess`*

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I Need to Go Back To School...haha [Nov. 27th, 2004|10:14 am]
[mood | restless]
[music | the wind blowing outside...haha! =P]

I really need to go back to school...haha. I'm mean, seriously, I'm not sleeping good ...well I'm sleeping good it's just that I go to bed at the wrong times. Like, I've been stayin' up to like 12 or 3 in the morning...
I really need to get sleep. I can hardly do anything during the day.
Oh well, I just ready to see everybody. Haha. But I'm really glad I got a vacation. I was getin' kinda sick of everybody. haha. Oh well, I ready to go back now.

Well, I better go clean the house before my mom, dad, and sister come home from town so I don't get yelled at...haha.
I'll write later about what went on today. If anything exciting happened.
Probably not, but I'll write in it any way..haha.

LOVE

Jess`*

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Twenty-Four [Nov. 26th, 2004|05:30 pm]
[mood | confused]
[music | tv...]

Twenty-four oceans
Twenty-four skies
Twenty-four failures
And twenty-four tries
Twenty-four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
With twenty-four drop outs
At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit,
take me up in arms with You'
And I'm not who I thought I was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit,
take me up in arms with You'

There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong

See, I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not copping out
When you're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And you're raising these...

Twenty-four voices
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
In twenty-four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing 'Spirit take me up in arms with You'
You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh
I am the second man
Oh, oh
I am the second man now
Oh
I am the second man now
And you're raising the dead in me
Yeah

I wanna see miracles
To see the world change
Wrestled the angel for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And you're raising the dead in me

Twenty-four oceans
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty-four parts
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit,
take me up in arms with You'
I'm not copping out
Not copping out

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Relaxing Day..sort of..=P [Nov. 26th, 2004|04:33 pm]
[mood | relaxed]
[music | tv.."Home Improvment"...haha]

Today was relaxing. I got up at 7 for some odd reason, then went back to bed becuase if I didn't I wouldn't be able to keep my eye's open. Woke back up at like 11, went downstairs to say "hi" to my mom and aunt DiDi. Took a shower then signed online and talked to a few people then went up to the garage to help cut up the deer meat, but they were already finished,so I came back down to the house and laid around. Then my mom fixed Thanksgiving leftovers for lunch/dinner...haha. We all ate then my uncle and aunt left. Then, my sister's dog, Puddles, was actin' really sick and wierd so we tried to feed her dog food then we discovered she couldn't move her left side of her face so my mom made like a slop kinda thing and she ate that right up. We found that she had a disease that is like a stroke. So, we are takin' her to the vet tommarow. She seems alright after she ate, so we are hoping for the best.

Well, that's about it for now. Hope ya'll had a good Thanksgiving! =D

LOVE

Jess`*

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Thankful For You Kelsey...(this is for you Kelsey Sisson) =) [Nov. 25th, 2004|09:43 pm]
[mood | thankful]
[music |What Happened? - Gretchen Wilson]

You don't know what it was like...
you didn't have to go through it,
betrayed and broken by your very best freind,
hiding the hurtful secrects
only for them to be revealed.
I turned to you for help,
like a rain you showered
your love upon my head.
My smile came back
when you held me up from the pain.
You were my hero.
You were my best friend.
You took care of me,
I listened to your words,
took them to heart, made
the world hear them.
You never forgot.
You always treated me with love,
you never used me, you never abused me.
I put my trust in you,
and all my thoughts and feelings,
and like a diary you
kept them locked away.
You let me cry on your shoulder
and weep in your hands.
You let me scream and shout
at the world. You never once
yelled at me. You
are my companion,my world,
you helped me forget and
move on.
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Today, on the day of thanks, I'm thankful for you. You are my Angel. I love you. I'm thankful for you Kelsey! <3

Kels -
I really don't know what I would do without you. You've always been there. I love you forever and for always.
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I am thankful for all my friends! I love all of you! I just really need Kelsey to know that. The things I've been through she's really been strong for me. But, I love you guys too! =)


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Happy Thanksgiving!! [Nov. 25th, 2004|06:35 pm]
[mood | happy]
[music |Tv..]

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!

I just wanted to write to tell everyone that I love you and I'm thankful for you! =D

I <3 YOU!

Jess`*
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It's About Time For Another One of Those Surveys..haha! [Nov. 25th, 2004|06:33 pm]
[mood | good]
[music | Tv...]

You*

*Your Name:Jessi
*Your Gender: Female
*Height: 5'3
*Hair color: blonde
*Eye color: green/blue
*Fears: hmm..


[*(..Section 2..)*]
*Have You Ever*

*Peed Your Pants:haha yeah..
*Cheated On Someone:umm..no..at least I don't think..
*Fallen For A Relative: umm..no..
*Fallen Off The Bed: yep
*Had Plastic Surgery: nope
*Broke Someone's Heart: according to some people I did, but they never told me ...
*Had Your Heart Broken: yeah...
*Had A Dream Come True: hmm...
*Done Something You Regret:omg...yeah, let's not get into that..
*Cheated On A Test:hehe..maybe,,
*Been Raped: NO!!
*Broken A Bone: nope


[*(..Section 3..)*]
*Currently*

*Wearing: gray sweatpants and a WV hoodie..I'm cold..
*Listening to: Bottom of a bottle - tv..
*Feeling: umm..ok..I guess.
*Reading: Izzy Willy-Nilly
*Located: office
*Chatting with: no one
*Watching: umm..nothing..
*Should really be: ??

[*(..Section 4..)*]
*Do You*

*Brush Your Teeth: yes!
*Like Anybody:hmm..I don't know anymore..
*Have Any Piercings: no..retard rule..
*Believe In Santa Claus: I don't know..
*Ever Get Off The Computer: when I have better things to do..


[*(..Section 5..)*]
*Friends*

*Your Bestfriend: Kelsey..
*The Loudest:all of us..
*The Shyest: haha..no one really
*Tell Everything To:Kelsey
*The Cutest:haha...we all are cute...
*Known The Longest: Samantha
*Laughs The Most: me and Kelsey..
*Known The Shortest: umm..I don't know..
*Belong To A Crew: uhh..I guess
*Hang Out With The Opposite Sex: haha..yep..
*Trust Your Friends: yeah..some of them
*Are You A Good Friend: don't ask me ...ask my friends..
*Can You Keep A Secret: sometimes..


[*(..Section 6..)*]
*The Last Person You*

*Hugged: my Mawmaw
*IMd: umm..no one..
*Talked To On The Phone: umm...
*Tripped: uhh...
*Slapped: my sister Hillary

[*(..Section 7..)*]
*Personal*

*What You Want To Be When You Grow Up: uhh...I don't know..
*The Worst Day Of Your 0Life: not gonna get started on that one...
*Most Embarassing Story: haha, I got plenty
*The Best Day Of Your Life: I don't know...
*Comes First In Your Life: people I love...
*You Usually Think About Before You Go To Bed: what am I gonna wear...haha

[*(..Section 8..)*]
*Favorite*

*Movie: umm..I don't know..
*Song:I have alot of them..
*Group: a lot of them..
*Store: American Eagle
*Sport: to watch-Football
*Vacation Spot: Haiwaii
*Ice Cream Flavor: depends..
*Fruit: bananas
*Candy:anything...
*Holiday: hmm..Christmas I guess..
*Day Of The Week: FRIDAY!!
*Magazine: Seventeen
*Girl's Name: Nagaina or Ali
*Boy's Name: Chadly or Taren


[*(..Section 9..)*]
*Do You*

*Like To Give Hugs: haha..yeah..
*Walk In The Rain: yeah
*Sleep With Or Without clothes: hmm...haha..depends..
*Think You're Attractive: I don't know
*Want To Marry: yup
*Have A Goldfish: nope..
*Had The Falling Dream: yeah
*Have Stuffed Animals: yeah, like a million
*Go On Vaca: yes


[*(..Section 10..)*]
*What Do You Think About*

*Abortion: what do you think about murder?
*Bill Clinton: must I answer?
*Eating Disorders: oh God..
*Tattoos: sure why not
*Peircing: certain ones are just hot
*Make-Up: yup
*Drinking: don't have a problem unless you get drunk off your ass..
*Guys: hhmmm ...yeah buddy...
*Girls: best friends in the world...

[*(..Section 11..)*]
*This Or That*

*Peirced Nose Or Tongue: nose
*Be Serious Or Funny: funny, but there's a time for everything
*Single Or Taken: hmm..
*Law Or Anarchy: anarchy
*MTV Or BET: MTV
*7th Heaven Or Dawson's Creek: Dawson's Creek
*Sugar Or Salt: sugar
*Silver Or Gold: silver
*Tongue Or Belly Button Ring: belly button ring
*Chocolate Or Flowers: hmm..depends..
*Angels Or Miracles: both
*Color Or Black And White Photos: black and white..
*Sunrise Or Sunset: sunset,
*M&Ms Or Skittles: M&Ms
*Stay Up Late Or Sleep In: why not both?
*T.V. Or Radio: both
*Hot Or Cold: why not just middle?
*Taller Guys Or Shorter: taller
*Diamond Or Ruby: Diamond
*Left Or Right: right
*10 Aquaintances Or 1 Best Friend: best friend
*Vanilla Or Chocolate: depends
*Kids Or No Kids: kids
*Cat Or Dog: both
*Half Empty Or Half Full: half full
*Mustard Or Ketchup: ketchup
*Newspaper Or Magazine: magazine
*Spring Or Fall: spring!
*Give Or Recieve: give.
*Rain Or Snow: rain, on a warm summer evening..
*Lace Or Satin: Satin
*A Year Of Sex Or A Lifetime Of Friendship: friendship
*Happy Or Sad: happy
*Corduroy Or Plaid: corduroy
*Wonder Or Amazement: wonder
*McDonalds Or Burger King: both
*Mexican Or Italian FooD: both
*Lights On Or Off: off
*Duct Tape Or Scotch Tape: both
*Candy Or Soda: both
*Pepsi Or Coke: pepsi
*Nike Or Adidas: both


[*(..Section 12..)*]
*Other Questions*

*Do You Go To Church: sometimes
*Do You Like Church: sometimes..
*What's Your favorite book: Where the Red Fern Grows
*Out Of All Your Friends, Who Has The Coolest House: hmm...? the coolest thing is them
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"The Bed" [Nov. 20th, 2004|12:29 pm]
[mood | okay]
[music |The Bed - Gretchen Wilson]

On his side of the bed, he's sleeping like a baby
Dreams are dancin' in his head lying with his lady
It's a peaceful night, and everything's just fine on his side of the bed
But on her side of the bed, those big brown eyes are cryin' from the things he never said
And deep inside she's dying
As she turns to face the wall, there's no love at all
On her side of the bed

[chorus]
If he'd just reach out she'd forget about all the times that he let her down
Oh but in his mind everything's all right when the lights go out

On his side of the bed he never even noticed her negligee of red
The very same one that she wore the night that they were wed
But he never turned his head to her side of the bed

[chorus]

Now on his side of the bed he wakes up and turns to say, "I love you"
But instead all he finds are pages full of words she'd never said
And that's all she left
On her side of the bed

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It's Been Awhile... [Nov. 19th, 2004|10:52 pm]
[mood | blah]
[music |The "Clean Sweep" show..haha]

Geez...it's been awhile...haha. I don't have anything to say right now, so I'll fill this thing in during the break.

Jess`*
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Yeah... [Nov. 7th, 2004|06:55 pm]
[mood | content]
[music |When I Think About Cheatin' - Gretchen Wilson]

This past week...yeah...I know some of you may not know, but for those of you who do, I'm over it. It's over and done...I'm movin' on. Everyone who was involed knows that, and if anyone as a problem with it, they can kiss my ass. It's not worth it. I have my friends to thank. They helped me ALOT! They were there from start to finish. Anyway...enough said about that. I went to the WVU game on Saturday, we played Temple. It was SOO much fun! There was this guy who was drunk and you weren't aloud to drink in the stands, but this guy...haha...didn't really agree with the rule, he had a little whiskey bottle in his hand the whole time. Oh yeah, he made a little cheer too... "Ciggarette ashes! Ciggarette butts! We got Temple by the nuts! Pull Mounties! Pull!" LMAO!! Jess <3
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Just Lettin' You Guys Know.... [Oct. 26th, 2004|04:43 pm]
[mood | happy]
[music |The Client - Movie]

Haha...just lettin' you guys know that I'm not in depression or anything like that...you gilrs should know its a woman thing, we do have mood swings.HAHA!

Well...I just wanted the write that for now, but I'll write later when I get the chance..

Oh yeah...almost forgot ...I got overall student of the month for team 4...haha...I'm a stud!

Jess
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